I think whoever I end up marrying seriously has to love animals haha like my cousin+wife do cos if not anyone else would not be able to tolerate my idiosyncratic tendencies of going out of the way to feed cats/ save random birds etc. I myself am not too sure where the rational logic in all this is sometimes.
[yes i know most of my entry titles have been john mayer songs. its like my whole itunes only has one album on loop <3]
nowhere to be(ee)
just a simple little kinda a free(ee)
whee!
I realised this today after I spent the whole late morning/early afternoon trying to get my supplementary readings[wah. since when I read extra readings? *patsselfonback* 8)]. They said I couldn't get it on my server at home so I went to sit in the school car park, connected to the school's network to try to get it, but it didn't work. So I had to drag my ass out of the car in all my old tee+ fbt glory to perhaps see if I can get them on a school computer. Then I ran into Byron and Norvin ( who laughed at my shirt :() Then i couldn't get the files on the school comp. So I messaged a few friends to ask if i could borrow their hard copies to zap, and in 5 mins I had them in my inbox! See how much trouble I could have saved myself if i had just asked :( bahhh. silly
http://cgi.ebay.com/ZHU-ZHU-pet-go-HAMS
people are actually willing to pay US$15 for clothes for fake hamsters. and essentially its just a strip of cloth... and elastic. ZOMG. $$$. This is like that woman who developed those studs for crocs. Haha why can't I come up with something awesome like that so I can quit school? :(
My mother insisted on taking my car yesterday cos she didn't want to subject her lexus to the harsh world that is Chinatown. So i bus-ed home and walked in. I haven't done that in agesss. I MIGHT be starting to get this walking thing.
I am also seriously contemplating spending US$5 on farmville so I can get me a few turkeys :)
Yesterday my mums got me a tampopo creampuff, custard pudding, meatballs and fake wassants from 4 seasons, yumyumyum. Rubs tummy :)
I eat a damn lot when exams come around and I study. Which makes me wonder if I would eat like a normal person all the time if I consistently kept up with my studies. HRM.
break my heart for what breaks yours
So my cousin is going back to America to work soon, she’s been here for about a year or something cos if you are not a us citizen you have to leave for a year after 5 years or SOMETHING like that.
’t want to know what kind of things that does to a child’s mental health.
I know there was more stuff that happened but I think I blocked it out.
This is why I choose to be apathetic to such thing some times. Too emotionally affected, too much heartache. I know the world isn’t all happy and bright and shiny but some days I really do not want to know. Defense mechanisms are wonderful things.
I've been looking for a charity to volunteer with of late so i was thinking maybe this is a sign.
Fighting with my weak hand
Driven to distraction
It's all part of the plan
When something is broken
and you try to fix it
Trying to repair it anyway you can
I dive in at the deep end
and she becomes my best friend
I want to love you but I don’t know if I can
I know something is broken
and I’m trying to fix it
Trying to repair it any way I can
Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo?
The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.
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Okay that qoute wasn't of any comfort.
I can't hold interviews and set up a committee and hold a meeting in the next 2 weeks. I have exams and I usually tend to leave the mugging till the last minute. Okay I better make this decision worth it then >:(
Also, I have managed to give myself this painful and huge bloodclot on my thumb from opening my toothpaste tube today :(
- Mood:
grumpy
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away,
From all of the ones who love you,
From everything.
Probably the only Paramore song I love. Anyway, rain sucks. I wake up in the morning and it's pouring outside and all I wanna do is go back to sleep or watch soaps the whole day with a cinammon bun ( or two.. or ten) and a cup of hot chocolate but nooo I must drag my ass out of bed for skool.
Ohoh. I got 72 for stats. I am very proud of myself ( and thankful God or luck, whichever the case may be) cos I totally didn't know what I was doing. Hurr. But of course the mean is about there la. Stupig muggers. h8.
HMM. Inverse proportion rule? haha.
Maybe it annoyed you in the end. Maybe I should just stop."
- Loren Barnes
So I've wanted Open House 2010 Project Director for about a year now. It was finally offered to me but I chose not to take it in the end despite many hours spent thinking about the pros and cons and talking abt what it's gonna be like and attempting to set up my dream team of a committee.
I seem to be letting a lot of big life changing things that I want go this year. Slip right through my fingers and what not. Sometimes I have the luxury of time to think things through other times I take so long to make my decision that the opportunity just passes me by.
I've found that it really is hard to give up the things that you actually want and can have, cos you have to live with the fact that you made that decision to give it up yourself as well as the possible regret in the future. PLUS you know, the fact that you want it and you can have it but you choose not to take it.
Which also means I am seriously psychologically impaired or something. Maybe it's linked to a fear of failure or I don’t know haha. Like the bigger the impact the things makes the harder the fall will be if there is one. Bah. I don't like falling, it hurts.
Thanks to
the
red
bull
away
*twitch*
okay i realise my entries are sporadic and not normally more than like 50 words haha. will revive this on monday, or attempt to at least.
